mom of luke and shane

January 11, 2012

…younger but braver…

Filed under: Family — by oaksusu @ 3:48 pm
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With Luke anything new, loud, or anything that defied gravity produced clenched jaw, tighten grip around my legs and shrieking. lots of shrieking. Even when he was just a few years old, I’d think to myself, “c’mon, you’re a BOY! you’re suppose to be LOUD and CRASH and like anything FAST!” but even now as a six year old, it takes the strength to move mountains, or bribe of star wars or cars, to get him to try something, anything that might be a little noisy and off the ground.

then there’s shane. by no means is he a daredevil or oblivious to above average incline of a slide. he hates most swings, fears vacuum cleaners, and cringes anytime he sees an ugly doll. he calls them monster. and scawee. but when it’s something that he likes, he has no fear.

Like this train ride. I remember when Luke first rode this, the operator had to stop after less than a minute to let him out. Shane though insisted that he go in his own car, though his plans were thwarted by a much bigger girl who cut in line (hmmph!), and that he would be the conductor. Luke was asking the whole time exactly how many minutes the ride was and how many times it went around the track. and of course the questions, “but HOW do you know that it’s not going to go too fast?!?!?”

During the windstorm where the winds got up to 90+ mph and many of the hundred year old oak trees fell every which way, Luke ran into our room the moment he heard winds gushing outside his room. Shane only followed suit and ran after him. We spent a while quieting down Luke and reassuring him that we’re all ok and that we’re safe. Shane, well after the novelty of our bed wore off, the comforts of his own bed was where he wanted to be. so he insisted, “i want my OWN bed. go back to my woom” i made bernard go with him and sleep in the room because i was scared for him to be alone!

I love his insistence and no nonsense sensibility. I hope one day I can be as brave as him!

January 8, 2012

…welcome back, again…

Filed under: Uncategorized — by oaksusu @ 12:42 am

just the other day i started reading one of my old blogs on xanga, remember that? i couldn’t get over how lame i sounded. i couldn’t help but blush at the immaturity and obnoxiousness of the writer… me! but here i am again. why?

well, there’s something to be said about growing. and seeing that growth in words, with your friends commenting and woo’ing and ah’ing over your kids’ silly pictures that really aren’t that cute. there’s a sweetness to learning and thinking that you’ve said something important, when really… it’s all been said before. and i miss my friends who’d read my blogs and i, theirs.

so what’s up? i guess a lot has changed since my last post. boys are bigger. louder. more grating. more loveable. insanely annoying. too precious to capture in words or pictures. our house has changed too. we moved! we are all grown up now, living with quiet, older crew in san marino. we honestly feel like total charlatans. we’ll drive around wondering if people know that people like US live in this mature establishment. hilarious.

i’m loving the west coast more and more. i still can’t get over the weather. it’s amazing… no wonder people write books, songs, and movies about it! it’s that great. i really haven’t had the true LA experience since i don’t live on the cool side of town, but i’ve gotten a taste and i can’t say i hate it. i love the food. amazing. seriously, y’all have to visit.

so here’s the latest and greatest from what’s going on inside of me. i realized that i’ve really become a flake of sorts. deadlines don’t have that great looming threat like it used to before. in fact, i think of them to be challenged. there has to be a way to get an extension, or did they really need it by monday? i’m sure it could wait a few days. i’m not sure why or how i got this way, but it’s pretty disturbing to me. i physically can’t get myself to cross off certain to-do’s because of this lack of duty or fear i have of deadlines! something for me to work on the new year.

so there it is. my first post in 2012. here’s hoping to more in the coming year!

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